Sabbatical? I'm edging on 900 pageviews, which means that I'm HELLA COOL. YO. I've been creatively lazy. Busy with work and school kind of (I haven't done shit in like.. two weeks. Well... work and school, but...
I'm thinking of getting another job. I love having people watching my back and stuff. Most of my friends still don't have a first job. I'm starting to really like this girl in my computer applications class. She's funny. And smart. It's awful. Anyway, heres some entertainment (************* is my male cousin):
************: seeing as how im an ordained minister..... if in 10 years we're both single, lets get married for the benefits
************: I'll do the ceremony
northern jackets: what?
************: we can go into the room when the others having a baby if we're married
************: i could just shove a litter of kittens under my dress and say im going into labor
************: it would scare the shit out of the doctors
At first, I thought it was a joke. I laughed, I poked fun, and then, much later in the day, I realized it wasn't.
Then I was angry. How could all of these people die? I thought we needed to do something. It was ludicrous. What had they done to deserve it? Nothing. And that was the discovery that I think still defines my life.
I did think Afghanistan was necessary. I mean, at first I didn't realize that civilians were dying. Even when I did, we couldn't just sit back. But what came after? It made no sense. No sense at all. What had they done to deserve it? Nothing.
And now, people have died left and right over the past three years, because nobody said "Hey guys, this isn't a fucking game", but shouldn't that be a given?
Well, I've finally turned 16. Which is cool. I bought a guitar over the summer, which was awesome. I still need to learn chords and stuff. I still need to get my permit. I still need to take drivers ed. It seems like the past 5 or so years have been clouded over by my antimotivation, and lack of knowledge. I really need to get on the ball. I got a job, I think I may have said this. It's alright, kinda shitty because it can be pretty gross, but it's $10 an hour, which is more than my peers make, at least my school peers, everyone else at work makes more than me, even though they get stoned, and take far more breaks than I do. Fuckers. Anyway, my mom has said I can have her car if I get good grades, and I'm kinda amped about this year anyway, because it's like a new chance. Like, not that every other year wasn't, just that this has been the least stressful summer in a long time, and I have something to lose now, you know? My classes have been pretty easy. My last block teacher has already informed me that I will fail, which is kinda awkward. I understand what he means though, I've had him twice before and failed because I never did the homework. Also, I'd like to know if anyone reads this, for serious.